ARC review: keep you safe

to read a blurb about this book from Goodreads, click here

Also, I’m sorry that this is incredibly long. I am very very passionate about vaccines and this book was all about that. I had a lot to say obviously. 

A super special thank you goes out to Goodreads and Harper Collins publishing/ Mira Books. Thank you so very much for allowing me to read this book beforehand. Please note that this is an uncorrected proof that I read. So some things I mention might not be in the final version of the book and that they are totally subject to change! 

My copy was also a paperback. There currently isn’t an option for the paperback edition on Goodreads. 

Expected publication for this book is August 22nd. 

Wow! I mean, I am just floored with what I read. From the first page to the last page, it was an incredible, thought provoking book. I mean, I am at a loss for words. And that twist at the end. I can’t even believe it.

Okay, let me get my thoughts in check. I took notes on this book, as I always do. It filled up the whole page plus on the side. That is how much I had to say about this book. Knowing me, I will forget to mention half of it. But I shall do my best. I also don’t want to give a lot away. I don’t know what the policy is on reviewing ARCs so I will try my best.

I’m not going to lie. Not even 20 pages in, I was mad. I was so mad that I had to put the book down and read Harry Potter to cool off. I was so infuriated with Madeline and her family. I’m not giving anything away, because it’s on the back of the book, by saying that she chose voluntarily not to vaccinate her kids due to what she and her husband read online about the MMR vaccine. For those that don’t know, MMR stands for measles, mumps and rubella. The HPV vaccine was also mentioned which prevents cervical cancer.

In case you guys didn’t know, I am a huge proponent for vaccinations. It is one of things I am seriously passionate about besides mental health and LGBT rights. I was vaccinated as a child and I’m totally fine. I got the HPV when I was older and the only thing that was bad was I had sore arms for a couple of days. I know that these vaccines SAVE LIVES. There is NOTHING you can say that won’t convince me me otherwise. Yes, there is always that slim chance that someone could get sick from the vaccines but that percentage is tiny. I get so angry seeing outbreaks of diseases that are totally preventable and were nearly eradicated because of people who buy into the debunked study that vaccines cause autism.

That is another thing that really grinds my gears. Anti vaxxers are so worried that vaccines cause autism that they would rather let their child run the risk of getting a horrid disease such as polio (which can cause deformities while the child is growing) than deal with a illness that is can be managed when caught early enough. Is autism seriously worse than polio, cervical cancer, measles, etc etc etc??? Let me answer that for you. NO. NO it is not!

Alright, stepping down from the pedestal. But seriously, this book will make you angry, as you can clearly tell from my little rant above, if you are on the side that I am on. I think Melissa Hill was trying to show both sides of the story. on vaccines And I totally understand that. In fact, she really did a good job of doing it. Much to my dismay, I did start to feel pity for Madeline. I didn’t understand her reasonings why she didn’t vaccinate her children nor do I approve of it, but I felt bad for what she was going through. Obviously not enough to side with her. And I obviously disapprove of it. But still, that pity was there.

I’m going to end it here because I don’t want to give everything way. I really highly suggest that you all read this book when it comes out which is in August. This book has a lot of positives, such as the multiple POVs from everyone involved. It didn’t become too much and I actually enjoyed getting the different thoughts from people. I really can’t see any downsides to this besides maybe you’ll get angry like I did and have to put the book down for a little while. Work through that anger, as I did, and I promise that you will like this book and everything it has to offer. I’m so glad that I won the giveaway and got a chance to read this book!



mid year book freak out tag

I’m so behind in tags that I have been tagged in. It’s awful. I’ve been neck deep in the world of Harry Potter and I have no regrets about it. None. Not even a letter (5 pts to your House if you can guess the reference!)

Anyway, I was tagged in this by the oh so lovely Frankie. Seriously, she is such a doll for tagging me in things all the time. I totally appreciate the love. I seriously recommend you guys all go follow her blog. She is constantly posting fun and interesting things and her reviews are spot on all the time!

Anyway, this is the mid year book freak out tag. Can you believe that it’s June, almost July, already? I mean it feels like just yesterday it was my birthday (I was born in January). This looked like a fun tag so here I go! Props, as always, to the creator of this tag.

I’ve decided to not use pictures because otherwise this thing will be monstrous. However, I shall post Goodreads links to all the books. 

Best book you’ve read so far in 2017

Easy peasy. Scythe. If you follow me on Goodreads, you saw my gushy review and it was probably extremely incoherent due to me fangirling. I mean, this book was everything. I adore dark and creepy things so this was right up my alley. It’s basically a retelling/dystopian view of the Grim Reaper. Not going to lie, after watching Supernatural, my interest in the Reapers intensified. This book delivered. Seriously. Stop reading this post and go read it. I won’t be mad.

Best sequel you’ve read so far in 2017

Crown of Midnight by Sarah J Maas. I had read Throne of Glass earlier this year and I was anxious to know how my Chaol and Celaena fared. I was also dying to know if Celaena actually became the assassin she claimed she was in the first book. I had even considered not finishing the series because I was just getting so frustrated with Celaena. I got some answers but am anxious to continue the series.

New release you haven’t read yet but want to

Follow Me Back by A.V Geiger. It seems like it’s a good book with representation for agoraphobia. Plus the blurb on Goodreads says it’s told through tweets, direct messages and police transcripts which reminds me of Illuminae. Which is a favorite book of mine.  So hopefully I will be able to read it soon.

Most anticipated release for the second half of the year

The Merciless 3: Origins of Evil by Danielle Vega. Technically it comes in July which is technically the second half of the year. I am super stoked! I read the first four chapters and I need more of it. I read the first two and this is an origin story explaining why the first two books happened. I adore origin stories so I can’t wait!

Biggest disappointment

The Mistress by Danielle Steel. The blurb made it sound like it was going to be a matter of life and death. Instead, I just got a guy obsessed with a girl who was basically a toy for a rich Russian. It wasn’t like anything that I thought it was going to be and it was just upsetting. Not one of her better writings.

Biggest surprise

Carve the Mark by Veronica Roth. This book received a lot of hate and criticisms. And I mean a lot. Because of all the criticism, I thought I was going to hate the book and regret spending my limited funds on it. Instead, I adored it. I saw why people got upset about it but I didn’t think it was a super huge issue. I think a lot people took things out of context (kind of reminds me of the Black Witch, which I haven’t read. I’ve just seen a lot of reviews about it.)

Favorite new author

Alison Weir. I read a couple of her books last year and read a lot more this year. I am so amazed at her attention to detail. In all her books, she notes that she tries to stick with the original story as much as possible and only takes liberties with things like conversations. She does a lot of historical fiction and is currently writing a six part series on King Henry VIII’s wives. So hyped!

Newest fictional crush

Ha, can I say Lisbeth Salander from The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo series? I don’t really develop crushes on fictional characters anymore. I just really want to be friends with Lisbeth. She is so cool and awkward, just like me. I need more awkward friends in my life. So maybe it would be a friend crush?

Newest fictional character

I’d say Evie from The Diviners series. I really love how spunky and sassy she is. I’m still really hoping that my ship works out. I have never wanted a ship to work more than Evie and Sam. Because of her, I’m a bit more interested in the 1920s. I can’t wait for the third book even though the covers are getting progressively more and more ugly.

Book that made you cry

Illuminae and Gemina probably were the ones that made me cry ugly tears, which were hard to hide since I was at work. I mean really, what kind of author puts me through all of that? It was awful but I was so damn hooked. I’m being intentionally vague because spoilers. But yes, read those books if you want to cry.

Book that made you happy

The Royals series by Erin Watt. I know I know. There are a lot of things wrong with it but damn, I love a happy ending. The trials and hardships that Ella and Reed went through made my heart hurt but I also really enjoyed the happy times as well. The series ended well for me and that made me happy.

Most beautiful book you’ve bought so far this year (or received)

I’m going to have to answer with Illuminae again. Because once you took off the dust jacket, you see all this awesome writing from the actual book. I adore writing on books like that. There is just something so cool about the different fonts that are available to us and how it can be used to cover almost an entire book without looking overwhelming.

What books do you need to read by the end of the year

I need to catch up on the following series:

The Gender Games

The Kingfountain series

Throne of Glass series

Traci Crosswhite series

Crossroads saga

The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty series

The Red Rising series

I’m sure that there are more series but these are the ones that stick out to me at this moment. I also need to get Origin by Dan Brown, the third Merciless, and Anne Boleyn by Alison Weir. There is clearly a lot more. I mean look at my TBR on Goodreads. It’s up to 250 books despite me trying to keep in under control. Because I am extremely lazy, I’m not going to link this section to Goodreads.

Favorite book community member (blogger, booktuber and bookstagrammer)

I know it says favorites but I don’t like playing favorites. It makes people sad. So I’m just going to say if you want to do this, go for it. If you tag me in it, cool. If not, no biggie. I like to keep tags fun.




lock and key

to read a blurb about this book on Goodreads, click here.


When I started this book, I was worried that I had finally outgrown Sarah Dessen. I used to read her books constantly when I was younger. They spoke to me because they were about problems that teenagers dealt with. I felt like I could relate to them. And in a way, I did. Even if the teenagers were whiny and cried a lot. I was a whiny teenager that cried a lot so I felt like I had a lot in common.

But I wondered, would I be able to relate to Sarah Dessen now that I am 24 years old?

In some ways, yes, I have outgrown Sarah Dessen. But in other ways, no. This book didn’t really help me decide but I enjoyed it anyway. But I wasn’t super wowed by it. I’ll explain further.

What I really liked about this book is the character growth. That is what really sucked me in. Every single character, whether it was a side character or a main one, had some sort of growth. And I love that. I hate it when characters are stagnant in a book. How can they accomplish anything if they don’t grow?

Ruby, I think, had the most amount of growth. She had been sent to live with her sister after her landlords found out that she was living alone, underage. Her flaky mother took off and left Ruby to fend for herself. Ruby had a bit of bad relationship with Cora, her sister, at first. She accused Cora of leaving her in the mess and abandoning her and her mom. But the truth slowly comes out and suddenly Ruby’s world isn’t the same. She had to learn what it meant to have a family.

The growth that Ruby had was incredible. She started out as a teenager so angry and sad for being left and completely set on being independent. Ruby’s mother instilled a lot of really bad thoughts in Ruby and it took her a long time to get over that. She viewed help as a sign of weakness and vowed to never left anybody help her. Slowly, through the help of Jamie (her brother in law), Cora, Nate, and others, she learned that help isn’t so bad and that family can mean more than one thing.

Nate was a good side character and a good love interest. I wasn’t totally wowed by him but he had charm and was good for Ruby. He made Ruby question a lot of her decisions in life and that was good for her. Nate essentially forced Ruby to rethink what it means to have friends and people that care about you. In turn, Ruby taught Nate that help is okay and it’s okay to talk about what is going on in your life.

Overall, this was a good book. I was surprised to find that I liked it as much as I did. I think the reason I didn’t love it was because I wasn’t super emotionally involved with the plot. It took me way longer than it should have to finish this book and I think it was just because I didn’t connect with the plot very well. In all honesty, there really wasn’t a plot and the plot I did find, kind of plodded along slowly. Maybe it would have helped if I didn’t read Harry Potter during this book but probably not. Overall, not a bad piece of work by Sarah Dessen.


happy father’s day

It’s father’s day! I wanted to take this time to talk a bit about my dad.

It was because of his dad, my grandpa, that I got into reading. Unfortunately, my grandpa is no longer with us but my love for reading that he instilled within me never died. Dad made sure to keep that love alive, in memory of Grandpa. I am so grateful that he did.

With my dad, I can talk about different types of books and he actually gives them a chance if I recommend something and vice versa. Although he still thinks I’m silly for loving 50 Shades. He is totally into YA, which is awesome, and he was one of the reasons I started reading the Hunger Games. I started reading more classics because of him because he likes to discuss those with me. And in turn, I started getting him to read Illuminae, which I am hoping he likes!

I am so bad with expressing myself with words so I’ll just end it here. Curse my awkwardness.

Thank you, Dad. You are truly one heck of a guy. ❤


ps. Hail to the Redskins! It’s our favorite team. This picture was on Thanksgiving. I’m wearing his sweatshirt and he is wearing the jersey I got him. 


seven deadly sins book tag

I’m back with another tag. I wasn’t really tagged in it, per se, but it looked fun. I found it on Frankie’s blog. If you haven’t checked her blog out, you seriously need too. Her reviews are fun and witty. Props, as always, to the original creator!

I’m also doing this tag because I’m currently in the midst of reading Harry Potter. I want to do a series overview of it so that’s why there is the lack of book reviews. I’m also reading a Sarah Dessen book and I got an ARC for Keep You Safe which I will be starting that as well. Don’t worry, once I knock out HP, I will be back with lots of reviews! In the meantime, enjoy this fun little book tag.

Greed: What are you most expensive and inexpensive book?

My most expensive book is Illuminae. It was actually a gift from my sister for my birthday!


My least (new) expensive book is Blue by Danielle Steel. It was a measly $8USD. I would have put my thrift store books but I can’t remember which one was the cheapest.


Sloth: What book have you neglected reading due to laziness? 

Easy. It is A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J Maas. The hype surrounding it is real and I don’t want to be disappointed.


Wrath: Who is an author you have a love/hate relationship with? 

Nicholas Sparks. There are a lot of his books that I adore but I really hate some of the endings that he does. They seem really pointless and hurt my heart. Luckily, my favorite, Safe Haven had a good ending.

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Gluttony: What book have you devoured over and over with no shame?

Harry Potter, no questions asked. I have been re-reading it over and over again. I compare everything I have read to Harry Potter.


Lust: What traits do you find attractive in fictional characters?

Personally, I like a sense of weakness. I like it when the character knows that they are weak in some areas and they work on fixing those problems. I always think of Neville when I think of weak characters. He knows that he is weak but he also knows his strengths as well. He works on those weaknesses and gets better and becomes a kickass wizard.


Pride: What book do you talk about in order to sound intelligent? 

Hmmm, to be completely honest. I really don’t do that. I talk about all the books I’ve read, not to sound intelligent, but because I enjoy talking about books.

Envy: What book would you like to receive most as a gift?

I would love love love the duology of Six of Crows or the Ravenclaw Harry Potter book set. Each are super crazy beautiful and I wouldn’t turn them down.




Anybody who wants to do this! This was a fun tag and it made me think quite a bit about my answers.



this is my truth now tag

I completely missed that I was tagged in this by Frankie. My brain just hasn’t been on the ball lately. So a big thanks to Frankie for tagging me in this fun tag. Go check out her blog if you haven’t already! She is super amazing and her reviews are always on point.

The creator of this tag is James from This Is My Truth now. Also check out his blog and show some support!


  • Create your own new post and call it “Tag: This-Is-My-Truth-Now” and be sure to include in your tags the words — without quotes — “ThisIsMyTruthNow Tag”
  • Be sure to mention the person who tagged you and maybe tell everyone something interesting about the person who tagged you.
  • Include a link to the original post ( mentioning the creator of this tag (James @ This is My Truth) so we can see how many people choose to play along.
  • Choose 12 bloggers to tag and include a link to their latest post, so others can check them out and meet new people.
  • Answer all 12 questions in The Challenge Questions section, but replace the 12th question with your own new one around telling the truth or revealing something interesting about yourself — you can leave the existing if you can’t think of something. (comment your answers to my question below before you change and post)
  • Make sure to add your own DARE to your tagged guests at the bottom of the post!
  • If you haven’t been tagged, but you want to play along, you can totally jump on in and post responses to the tag on your blog.
  • Include these rules when you copy/paste to your own post.

Truth: Answer the challenge questions as truthful as possible


Dare: If you chose not to follow not to accept the tag, you have to follow through on whatever dare the person who tags you chooses.

The dare that was given to me was this: I dare you to write and post 5 full RTC reviews (for books you read more than 1 year ago) this week!

Lacy isn’t all about that. I have the worst memory ever so I shall answer the questions truthfully.

So this is my truth:

Question 1: You’re on your way to a birthday dinner that your friends have thrown for you. When you arrive, your favorite author is having dinner by himself or herself and asks you to sit with them, before you even see your friends or they see you. You have two choices: (1) You can sit with the author but can’t tell your friends that you’ve abandoned them for three hours, or (2) Meet your friends and lose the only chance you’ll ever have to talk with the author. Pick one or the other — no exceptions or communication to your friends to tell them about the author — and explain why.

Answer: Jesus, either way I would hate myself. I think I would have to take that chance and sit with the author. My friends understand how important reading and the bookish community is to me. They would totally understand if I saw Jk Rowling or Danielle Steel and had to jump at the chance to sit with them.

Question 2: You’ve got an opportunity to spend a few hours alone “in your bedroom” with a character from any book you’ve previously read. The character tells you that (s)he would like to lock the door and spend some alone time with you. What book and character is it, and do you decide to enter the room and lock the door, or tell them you aren’t interested?

Answer: I think it would have to Inej from the Six of Crows duology. I would love to sit there and just have girl time. I don’t think she gets that a lot hanging out with a bunch of guys. I mean yeah, Nina is there but she is so wrapped up in Mathias. I think girl time with Inej would do her some good.

Question 3: If you could turn any male character from one of your favorite books into a female character (or change a female into a male) in the book or book series, which one and why?

Answer: These questions are so nuts, I love it! I think it would be hilarious to see Kaz from Six of Crows as a female. He is such a male that I think he wouldn’t know how to be a female. It would be interesting to see how his life would be different if he was a girl. Would he still be the rough and daring Kaz? Or would he be softer and more willing to forgive?

Question 4: What blogger currently on your follower’s list (meaning they follow you too) do you admire the most and why?

Answer: Well now I would feel awful listing just one person when I follow so many wonderful people. I think it would have to be Mayflower from myfirstchapter. I think it’s always incredibly brave to try blogging when you have never done it before and I think she is doing a fantastic job!

Question 5: If you could change any one decision your favorite book character made, what would it be and why?

Answer: I think it would have to be Dumbledore hiding information from Harry about him and how important the connect between Harry and Voldemort really is. He had no right to do that and I hate him a little for that.

Question 6: If you could pick 1 character from a book and 1 character from a TV show you watch (that is NOT based on a book) to be in a relationship together, who would you choose, and why?

Answer: Oh my. My TV watching literally consists of animated shows, Supernatural and Lucifer. Hmmm, I think Hermione and Sam (from Supernatural) would be a good pair. They are both highly intelligent and are incredibly loyal, even when things seem bleak. They could probably sit there for hours and discuss all sorts of things. Although, Sam hunts the creatures that Hermione has studied.

Question 7: It’s your last day on Earth. As you are about to cross that final finish line, a mysterious shadow appears, giving you a choice: (1) You can go move forward to whatever comes next for you [based on your own spiritual or religious beliefs], or (2) you can become a character in a book series and exist permanently doing whatever that author chooses to do with you in the book. Which do you choose, and if it’s option 2, reveal the book and author.

Answer: Well, considering my religious beliefs, I don’t know how well I would do where I’m going. So I would probably just go live in the world of Harry Potter by Jk Rowling. I mean, that is like my ultimate dream.

Question 8: If you could steal a pet from someone in any book you’ve read, but had to replace it with a friend’s pet (meaning they wouldn’t ever see their pet again), would you do it?  If so, explain the who and why.

Answer: It’s like these questions want me to be an asshole. In all honesty, I don’t read a lot of books with pets so I probably wouldn’t do this.

Question 9: If you could turn someone from your real life into a character from a book, who from your life, who in the book and why?

Answer: Hermione from Harry Potter. I think there is a pattern with these questions and my answers. I’m clearly obsessed with Harry Potter or Six of Crows. Hermione means a lot to me. She showed me that being a nerd with a love for learning is completely okay. That there will be people that will love you just for who you are. Before I met my best friend, Hermione basically was my best friend.

Question 10: Post a picture of the cover of a book you read in 2000 and the book you are currently reading now. (Note: if you weren’t alive in 2000, pick the first book you ever read and tell everyone what year it was from).

Answer: (when you have to pull up a calculator and figure out how old you were in 2000). Well I was only 7 so I was probably reading something like this. I’m currently re-reading Harry Potter so there’s that.

aladdin     <–Book I was probably reading when I was 7. 51qMJn9tcHL<— Books I’m currently reading now.

Question 11: Your favorite character (under 18) needs a place to stay for 3 months and asks you if (s)he could stay in your spare room (yes, you have one for the sake of this question). Who is it and what is the reason (s)he needs to stay with you?

Answer: Well, in my favorite series, my favorite character is over 18 by the end of it. I can’t remember how old Inej is so if she is under 18, I would sure as hell let her stay with me! She is probably staying with me to get a break from Kaz, because we all know he can be a bit much.

Question 12: (I’m not very creative when it comes to making my own questions, so I’m just going to use the one that Frankie used) What is one attribute that a favorite character of your has that you wish you had as well? What character, what attribute and why? (you can change this question when added to your blog, but please let me know your answer to this question in the comments below)

Answer: I love Hermione’s tenacity. Take for instance SPEW. She was just about the only one that was super concerned about elfish welfare. She didn’t care that nobody else cared. She tried her damndest to make sure those house elves had rights. She shows constant tenacity through the book and I love that about her.

TRUTH OR DARE to the following people:

(I’m new to the blogging game so I am only tagging 10 people instead of 12)

I’m going to be completely honest and just let you all know that Frankie basically tagged all the people I would have tagged. So just go to her post. lol. I really need to make a bit more friends. If you totally want to do this and I didn’t tag you or you weren’t tagged in it at all, then go ahead and do it.  It’s a lot of fun!


For those that don’t want to answer the challenge questions: here is your fun little dare. I dare you to write a positive review on a book that you absolutely couldn’t stand. Have fun!




the night circus

to read a blurb about this book on Goodreads, click here


This was an interesting book to say the least. I do see why people are into magic realism. It really is a wonderful genre. But it’s not something I would want to read all the time. This book was something special, though. It was beautifully written and flowed perfectly. There was just the right amount of mystery and the right amount of…well everything. It reminded me of A Star Touched Queen. with the beautifully flowing writing.

I was slightly confused at first because this book starts with two different periods of time that slowly merge together. Once I figured that out, the book became a lot easier to read. I actually really liked that aspect. It’s definitely something that you don’t see a whole lot of. I do wish that the game was explained a bit more thoroughly, however. I wanted to know everything about the game and why it came into existence. But I’m one of those people that insists on knowing everything.

As beautiful as this book was written, I found it hard to connect to the two MC’s, Marco and Celia. I was rooting for them as a couple but separately, I just couldn’t connect with them. They just seemed kind of two dimensional. Again, maybe it’s a me thing. I prefer character driven stories than plot driven stories. And I’m not entirely sure if this was a character driven book, a plot driven book or neither.

It sounds like I didn’t like this book but I really did. I can’t get over the writing and how wonderful it flowed. I just found it really hard to connect with the characters, both the MC’s and all the side characters. There were kind of a lot of side characters so I got slightly confused. It also didn’t help that I started the book really confused because I didn’t read the chapter beginnings closely, which was my own fault.

I will say this though, it was SO MUCH MORE BETTER than Caraval. I mean, it was a 100 million times better. This book didn’t lie to me for the sake of lying, which I will forever be salty about. And even though I didn’t connect with the characters, they were so much more better what Caraval came up with. I mean seriously, why is Caraval even a book? I usually don’t rag on a book so hard but it upsets me because Caraval had a lot of potential and it just flopped.

Overall, this book was good. I liked the writing and I liked the concept. The Night Circus sounds like a badass circus that I would love to attend. The descriptions even between the “chapters” made me want to find the nearest circus. I just couldn’t connect with the characters which is why it has four stars instead of five.