trigger warning: self harm
Do you know how hard it was to write a review about a book that is basically your life? It was very hard in case you were wondering. I just want to sob and blubber like a mess because of how perfect this book was. How do I even begin to compose words about something that has been a part of my life since I could retain memories? It was like Louise Gornall took my brain and put it on paper.
I knew going into this book, that it would be a tough read. It’s all about Norah, who suffers from agoraphobia (fear of leaving her home and spaces deemed safe), OCD, anxiety, self harm and depression. My heart bled for this girl. She was doing the best she could despite everything. I felt nothing but compassion for her and was in total awe of her bravery to get up everyday and live the best life she could.
This book has touched my heart, soul, mind, body, whatever, in so many ways. And it felt this way because I knew exactly what Norah was going through. I have generalized anxiety disorder with panic attacks and OCD tendencies. Every single thought Norah had, I’ve had too. And that hit me, hard.
Even though this book was rough in terms of subject, I still found myself laughing. Norah is delightfully sarcastic and witty. The banter and special relationship she has with her mom is amazing. And I really loved that this wasn’t a love cures book. She wanted to get better for her and for the people around her, even Lucas.
Speaking of Lucas, he was so amazing. If only there were more people like him in the world, it would be a lot better of a place. He tried his very best to help Norah and even researched her illnesses in the attempt to understand her. He asked questions and respected boundaries with her. That is a sign of a good guy right there.
Overall, this book has a special place right up there with Harry Potter, in my heart. I’m sorry that this wasn’t quite a review and more of me being a mess but I think that everybody needs to read this book so they can all understand or at least begin to understand what it is like to have anxiety and panic attacks.