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If I could give this book all the stars, I so would. Because this book deserves it! It deserves so much more recognition then it gets. I didn’t even know this book existed until I got the Overdrive app. But in a way, I’m glad I didn’t read it until now. I wouldn’t have appreciated everything this book offered. Young Lacy wasn’t into character driven stories like the current Lacy is.
I’m going to be honest. I didn’t expect much out of this book. I didn’t expect this book to rip up my heart, stomp on it and throw it back at me. I was intrigued by the pretty cover and the synopsis seemed okay. I figured I would end up dealing with a whiny woe is me MC who refuses to accept her mistakes. I have read enough drug related YA books to know what I was getting into it.
I was wrong.
This book wasn’t just about Sophie, the MC, getting and staying clean. It was about her understanding her past and coming to terms with herself and finally maybeunderstanding the person she loved. It was about getting answers and clearing the guilt and blame from herself. It was about mending old wounds and beginning the process of healing the new ones.
I was a mess of emotions during this book. There was heartbreak and that was a major theme during the course of this book. Nothing but pure heartbreak. It radiated off the book in spades. I almost couldn’t go through with reading it because the heartbreak was almost too much. Sophie is completely lost without her other half. It’s a pain that nobody ever wants to experience. Hell, I wouldn’t wish it upon my most terrible enemy.
I mean, I was crying reading the last few chapters. Tears were streaming down my face and I didn’t know until one of them hit my Kindle. No book has made do that since I read My Sister’s Keeper by Jodi Picoult. I usually cry in bursts during books. A tear there, a tear here. Not this full on, almost sobbing because this book was just so damn sad.
Seriously, you all need to read this book. But be warned. It’s not an easy book to get through. It’s very character driven and the chapters bounce back and forth from the past to the present. But it works. All of it works and it creates such a beautiful story that will make your heart heart so much. But it will be all worth it you learn a valuable lesson. That lesson is that you find all your friends and family, you tell them that you love them and you hug them until they can’t breathe. Because none of us really truly know when it’s going to be our last day.
I’m going to go find the happiest book I can and read that because my heart hurts. Or maybe some Tumblr posts. Anything.